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Little Nemo cried himself to sleep again
He had begged
for his mother’s  love
but she had put him in place
for being needy

“It is the most loving thing I can do”, she explained
“You will understand one day”

Little Nemo visited dreamlands
looking for a princess
to save him with her love

But when he finally found this princess
he no longer believed
And soon enough she begged for his love
and he would put her in place
for being needy

“It is the most loving thing I can do”, he claimed.
“You will understand one day”

Little Nemo is no longer little
He sits in the green chair
cold and raging
drinking his wine

“How could this princess insinuate
that his love was not loving?
That would mean
that his mother had not loved him, too!”

And the story went sadder from there.

In the far-away land
the princess had cried herself to sleep
And in her sorrow she did not notice
the Monster on a killing spree.

And so somebody had to die
because Nemo had turned dreamlands into nightmares
and reality into delusions

The princess screamed in horror over what could no longer be undone
And then she whispered “I just love you”.

“And that is the most loving thing I can do”, she added.
“You will understand one day”



The first crow
to appear
talked to me for hours
wouldn’t leave

It wanted to be my messenger

I asked if it could to travel
Across the sea
bring a message
I  myself cannot give

«I release you»
«I forgive you»
«I love you»
«I wish you well»

The second crow
grasped my awareness
as I walked down the street
(I was weirded out by all these talking crows today)

It asked me to embark on a journey

I accepted
and was catapulted to the sky
higher and higher.
I wasn’t prepared

As I regained my balance
I looked down
and what I saw was this:
My body on the ground beneath me

Talking to a crow

Then I flew

 



Unicorn
impalement
hurts

only

until you admit

they
are
nothing

but

mythical
creatures.



circles
around the truth

and my past lives
are facepalming


grog was hiding in the closet
crying
because nobody loved grog for grog

then grog invented cleg
because cleg could impress dad
because dad did not love grog for grog

cleg found women
cleg found work
cleg was cool
and grog drowned in alcohol

then a woman loved grog for grog
and she told cleg to go away

grog quitted alcohol
grog smiled
but cleg felt anxious
because he only lived when nobody loved grog for grog

cleg formed grig
in order to survive
and grig tortured the woman
for loving grog for grog

grog said “I love you. Marry me”
cleg said “I just want a woman, I don’t need you in particular”
grig said “you are worthless and a bad woman and I want you gone”
and the woman cried

cleg said “what? can’t you take different perspectives?”
the woman said “more like different personalities…”

and cleg said to grog
“look, women are crazy, they just cry and are needy and don’t really make you feel good”
and grog accepted
and left the girl

because nobody loves grog for grog

because nobody loves grog for grog
because grog believes in cleg and his sales
because the woman loved grog for grog
because the woman did not like cleg and his fake
because grig tortures women for loving grog
because women cries when tortured for love
cleg can tell grog that women hate grog

because nobody loves grog for grog



you
gave away
your soul
to lose me

when you could have just asked me to leave

you
wondered
why
it scared me

when surely your demons must have frightened you as well?

you
said
we
destroyed divinity

when you know I wasn’t involved in whatever happened for you

did you
blame  me
to save
your ego?

thinking it could ever be saved?

God
saw
you
and will remind you

until again you give away your ego for your soul.



The other woman
The whore
The one you enjoyed in front of me
The internal inverted snake

The deceptive energy of life
The betraying one
The one preventing you from unity
The mother of monsters

Drinking her elixir
to gain her powers
Not understanding old wisdoms
Not listening to new warnings
Not using your God-given intuition
But controlling yourself
Into madness
Into darkness
Into corruption of your soul

And grey turns black.


 


The all seeing eye
Revealing your karma

your future
in your past

History interweaving
stories of universal justice


 


“God, I want an alien»
“but you aren’t ready, my son»
«Let me prove I am»
begged the man
«but if you fail, she may be mortal, too»
warned God.
«I am a man of honor»
said the man
«I will keep her safe»

And so God let him meet her.

And she said
«I love you»

And the man was happy.

But soon he felt doubt
and it saddened her
So he got angry with her hurt
and she felt scared
then he was offended
with her fear
and destroyed her

God said
«but I saw you, my son
you pretended to be a man of honor
to win her heart
a heart that loved you dearly
then you tortured her
to get rid of her
so you no longer had to see the pain you had created
you did all this evil
to one of my creatures
just like I expected from a human being.
And now she is infected, too.

Do you have anything to say for yourself?»

«I felt bad»
said the man

And God said
«and after destroying her
do you feel better?»

«I do»
said the man

And God said
«so this is why earth is hell
and this is why still
you are mortal»



 you clipped your wings
for fear of flying
you demonized her
to not face yourself
you threw away love
to avoid possible grief
but Fallen Angel,
– She still has her wings



fragments of past pain
move like kids on the dance floor
protected by our love
until they dance like pros



Am I talking to a wall ?

The echoes
unusually strong today

I oscillate
between
the feeling of joy
over being understood
so easily

and the feeling of fear
that only
empty rooms
carry sound
this well.



I close my eyes
and see
how simple
life
should have been



two souls
meet
in a corridor

nod
and proceed

as if they were human



fireworks
darkness before
darkness after
not same color



Inner sceneries
create
life

Paint!

Slowly


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