Do you fear you are losing your sanity? Do you lack a trait you feel you should have had? Are others complaining about something you do or don’t do?
Then fake it until you make it. Act and talk and think the way you would have acted and talked and thought if you were totally in balance, and sooner or later it will be who you are. You will be in balance.
We cannot escape influence from what we focus on and what we surround ourselves with, not even from ourselves.